Q&A: not a question. just to let out some steam?

Question by penguinator211: not a question. just to let out some steam?
haha yea. anybody reading this, thanks

i just need to tell whats bothering the s*it out of me but i cant.

yanswers seems like a safe place to spill some beans. God forgive me for misusing yanswers
haha

My best friend, which is a person of the opposite sex is very dear to me. we’v known each other since 6th grade, but werent friends till 12th.

the truth, i had a crush on that person when i was in 6th grade. i’ll name that friend of mine H.
we never spoke to each other, and i dont know what made me like him in the first place. we were in the same classes, but thats just it.
anyways that was just a 2 year thing.but it was a major thing while it lasted.

and there were the high school dating period. i dont flirt. and went through 3 break ups in 5 years.

while i was in a middle of a relationship with a schoolmate (i was in 11th grade), a phone call at my parents’ one one February weekend shook my knees. it was H. that was weird. how on earth did he
get my number? but we spoke on the phone anyways. H asked me out for a movie.i said yea why not.

after that movie, we werent really getting along quite well, even as friends. i guess we were shy kids.

a year later, senior year, H sent me a text message to my cell. and again how the f did H do that? i dont give my cell number to nobody.

but we started texting frequently as we got to know each other. hey,H was a major crush, how can i not starting to have those feelings back? and so i started to like him back

text messages, to phone calls. we call each other every few days. you know, check each other out. i was H’s best buddy then.

we have been doing that for more than a year now. we bitch about stuff. tell secrets. help each other out. share the joy. spared time. we hate the same things. we laugh at the same things. though we dont love the same things, we love each other’s company. we were hommies
then H tole me that H had feelings for me too when we were back in elementary.
haha we laughed back at old memories.
but i was the foolish one. i started to have feelings for H.

over that one year plus, H had a series of crushes. H shared with me all the details.he asked me for tips and tricks of dating.and i helped him with some stuff. yea, it breaks a poor puppy’s heart, but i wasnt tellin H that.

and so i was there when all H’s crushes rejected H.

but recently, i introduced H to my other friend, B. and H is starting to really really like B

i mean i know H, he aint playin around with this

B’s a new friend, and a really good friend. B and H only met once.

and H wants B real bad.

and B’s the kind of person that would like anyone who likes him/her

so the chances of them getting together is quite inevitable.
you get what im sayin?

im kinda sad here, cus u know who wouldnt want to be together with someone you like. i know id love to

but B’s my friend. even if B’s aint, there’s nothing much i can do about it. i dont stand a chance anyways.

H is my best friend.
im happy H’s happy. i havent seen H this excited and happy for quite some time.

id do anything to keep H happy. just to see H smile and hear H laugh. even for a moment.

so im helping B and H out. B knows that i like H. the plan now is to make B think that i dont, anymore. B’s the kind of person that will feel guilty for messing with a friend’s crush, bf, etc.

and if B’s gonna feel guilty, then B might not want to work things out with H. and that will tear H apart.

ive been asserting the fact that im really interested in an old flame. although its not true, but heck.

God. thank you for reading. got that off my chest.

i know its wrong to feel sad because your 2 best friends are gonna get together. well im happy at the same time too. they both suit each other perfectly well.

im really hoping for the best for the two of them
God bless everybody

Best answer:

Answer by Abigail
hey, sometimes you gotta vent. I read it, i hope you feel better! Happy new year!

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